I almost forgot to go to work today. I don’t know where my mind was, I work every Friday morning, and yet today it did not register with me. Perhaps because I have to work tomorrow instead of Sunday due to Easter, or perhaps it was because there was no school this week. Either way, as I finished my first cup of coffee and went for a second this morning at 6:00 a.m, Mark asked me what time I had to leave. I had a moment of shock followed by a moment of panic, as I realized I now had to completely rewire my brain for a different day than I had planned.
This may be a simple task for some people, but it is a difficult one for me. I like to have a plan. I like to have a schedule. I like to be on time- no, I like to be early. I had myself in a mindset for a lazy Friday morning followed perhaps by an afternoon in nature, topped off by an evening with the kiddos. I had to completely reset my mind frame to be able to focus on work, and it didn’t really take hold until I turned the key in the lock. Even on the drive to work, I felt panicked and discombobulated. It’s not like I was going to be late, and everything was fine- it was even an easy day and I got out early so I could come home and spend time with kids. Alas, I had to get myself in the right frame of mind and that is a difficult task.
So, my day thus far has been work, coming home and relaxing because I think I pulled a back muscle, and soon I have to run to the store. Then the kiddos are coming (E is already here,) and I can hang out with them still, but my day feels off. It has felt that way since 6:00 a.m. I envy people who can make changes, big or small, in a short period of time. It takes me a while to process things, especially changes to my schedule. I often wonder if that is a sign of neurodivergence- probably. I saw somewhere on the internet that there is a test you can take now that tells you where you fall on the spectrum, and I don’t know how medically sound it is but I have considered giving it a shot. I would be very curious to know if my brain works as strangely as I have always assumed that it does.
Anyway, this is a bit of a short blog because I would really like to get out and do some things that I wanted to do today, particularly those that do not involve work or errands. And so, I bid you adieu. Happy Friday!