It is November 2nd, and I have written nothing. Nothing for NaNo, unsurprisingly, but also nothing for my blog or Patreon yet this week, so here I sit catching up on the word game while I have a spare hour. Blog comes first, followed by a Patreon update, then perhaps I will grab 1500 words out of my WIP and see what I can do with them. Alas, I suspect that by the time I get to task number three, I will run out of time. I had all morning yesterday to write, but I forfeited it to go drive down and visit my mom, instead. She is currently in a nursing home and rehab facility in Salamanca, so the drive was a little better than when she was in Erie.
She seems ok, same as usual, and I spent a little while trying to get her to communicate with me in some way, but nothing really came of it. So, I got frustrated, and gave her a good firm talking to about how if she doesn’t start swallowing and speaking she’s never coming home, and then she just starts swallowing, as if showing off! “Good, now do it with some food!” I said.
I went to leave, and I did hug-a-head. It’s this silly thing we have always done, where we hug each other’s head and say “Hug a head!” and then the other person says “Hug a head!” and it’s just this cutesy nonsense we have always done. So, I hug her head, and I say “hug a head!”
And doesn’t this woman respond, raspy, but clear enough: “Hug a head!”
I screamed, and cried at the same time; I was so startled, and also happy. When I was in Salem, I was sad because all but one of my voicemails from my mother was deleted from my phone, and I wanted to be able to hear her voice. It made me sad that I couldn’t remember the last thing she said to me. I know it was something along the lines of “I’m sleeping in tomorrow, so don’t come over too early…” but nothing specific. Now, I have something! The last thing my mother said to me was “hug a head.” No recording, but at least I have this memory until her speech expands again.
I drove home, and when I arrived, I noticed that my car was behaving strangely, for the third time this month. Reluctant to return to the mechanic, I spent the time I should have been writing driving to the gas station and checking the oil…of which there was none. I mean…zero. Dry as a bone.
Checking the little tag from Valvoline, I discovered I should have gotten it changed about 700 miles prior. I am, of course, unsurprised that this detail slipped my mind during the past month or so. I got some oil and put it in and then drove back to dad’s house to borrow his car to go to work. Then…it was time to go to work. So, no words dropped, for anything.
At work there was a gas leak, so we had to evacuate to the community center, which caused chaos to reign, particular in my K-1 class. Little kids suck at change in setting and activity…so, of course, we dropped them in an unfamiliar building and had them do their homework in the gym, instead of at a table in a classroom. Many of my kiddos didn’t have homework because they were evacuated before folders were handed out, so really I just had to corral them for an hour or so. Then the littles were taken down to the basement to a game room, and I manned a computer lab that none of them were very interested in once they discovered the computers lacked both Roblox and Minecraft.
When I got home, I was exhausted, because I didn’t sleep much the night before. I went to bed early, again forfeiting my writing time for the day, and slept soundly until I awoke to go get an oil change this morning.
You know, I really love my jobs. They are both very rewarding, but on days like to day I am sad that I have so little time to devote to my writing. Even now, it is almost 1pm, so I need to wrap this up and post it before I get ready to go. I have just enough time to finish this and post my Patreon, but I don’t think the WIP is getting touched today. There are just not enough hours in my days anymore.
2 thoughts on “A Tough Tuesday”
Showing up for your ailing mom, educating the littles under frustrating circumstances, and then a car that’s trying to punk out on you in the midst of it all, who needs to write a novel? You’re living one. Hang in there, the tide will come back in. This writer is cheering you on.
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I want to hug a head with your mom Moe my friend .
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